Chaos and Cosmos

I am so tired of caring
I am so tired of pretending
I am so tired of waiting
tired of anticipating
it is my fault for believing
and allowing the deceiving
hanging on the words
that should have went unheard
wading through the chaos
unwaning and lost
fading and tossed
into loves sweet holocaust
if it is written in the cards
and spelled upon the stars
it should not be so hard
to escape misery's bard

Night Vision

I have sat in the dark
for so long
that my eyes have adjusted
so I stay here in fear
that the light may blind me
and if my sun was to rise
I am terrified
that I may not even notice.

Guilty as Charged

Life is but a gamble
and I have played my cards
if this is illegal
I am guilty as charged

If I have played my part
and traveled this far
by following my heart
I am guilty as charged

I have fought with devotion
proven by my battle scars
if this is a wrongful notion
I am guilty as charged

I hold to my convictions
no matter how hard
if this is sinful addiction
I am guilty as charged

If you wish just leave me be
to rot behind these bars
I no longer concede
I am guilty as charged