Monday, June 21, 2010

Optimist

I apologize if these words
do not paint a pleasant picture
excuse me if I only give vivid detail
from a black and white perspective
sorry If I wander the gray area
pardon me for not being content
amongst the populous of raped minds
and ravaged landscapes
I also sometimes regret
that it holds no stories
of rainbows and butterflies,
green pastures and blue skies
but hearts were destined to be broken
the roses have their thorns
the birds have their beaks
and the bees have their stingers

those who examine both sides of the coin
are easily susceptible
to the break,
to the prick,
to the peck,
and to the sting

but memories. . .
ahh memories. . .
you are but the queen of all bitches!

the break will heal
the prick will stop bleeding
the peck will heal
and the sting will subside. .

but the memory will surely outlive me.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

It Is

It is what sends chills down your spine
It is what raises the hair on your neck
It is the butterflies in your stomach
It is what makes you weak in the knees
It is what leads us from sadness to happiness,
and sometimes vice-versa

It is what makes you feel weightless
Is is the goosebumps that come
It is what we all search for
It is the meaning to our life
It is what does not have to be said,
but felt

The Naysayers

Let them talk
let them scoff
let the swine feed from the trough
all their words come off as soft
spewing from mouths which don't belong

However Much It Hurts

If it is a matter of luck
  it doesn't matter much

I guess whatever works
 However much it hurts

If it is a matter of chance
  I still maintain my stance

I guess whatever works
  However much it hurts

However much it hurts

right in front of my eyes
I watch time fly by
wonder why
somehow I
can't get a damn thing right
still I fight
day and night
raging against these plights
drunk with madness
taking chances
to ignore the sadness
how did it come to this
my advance
another step toward the abyss
I only wish
for a little peace
maybe a little bliss
a mind at ease
a place where all the troubles cease
look at me
as I transform into a beast
how could this be?
I'm stumbling
my stride once came easily
I'm crawling
the fall cut me off from the knees
as I bleed
profusely
seeking some appendages
confessedly wondering
what happened to all of my friends
haphazardly
hoping that it all will end
seeking light around the bend
that might hold just a bit of content
when it's done and said
maybe I can rest my head
but until then
I guess I still have to contend


If it is a matter of luck
  it doesn't matter much

I guess whatever works
 However much it hurts

If it is a matter of chance
  I still maintain my stance

I guess whatever works
  However much it hurts

However much it hurts

The March

We only lose
what we have not gained
before the deathbed
so why quit trying?
why cease fighting?
with persistence
victory is but an avenue
towards an end
maybe a dead end
but on the other hand
possibly the destination
one can never know
unless we arrive there
regret
is reserved for those
who never made an attempt
The white flag
only symbolizes pestilence
I will march to the drum
of my heartbeat

until it no longer continues to