However Much It Hurts

If it is a matter of luck
  it doesn't matter much

I guess whatever works
 However much it hurts

If it is a matter of chance
  I still maintain my stance

I guess whatever works
  However much it hurts

However much it hurts

right in front of my eyes
I watch time fly by
wonder why
somehow I
can't get a damn thing right
still I fight
day and night
raging against these plights
drunk with madness
taking chances
to ignore the sadness
how did it come to this
my advance
another step toward the abyss
I only wish
for a little peace
maybe a little bliss
a mind at ease
a place where all the troubles cease
look at me
as I transform into a beast
how could this be?
I'm stumbling
my stride once came easily
I'm crawling
the fall cut me off from the knees
as I bleed
profusely
seeking some appendages
confessedly wondering
what happened to all of my friends
haphazardly
hoping that it all will end
seeking light around the bend
that might hold just a bit of content
when it's done and said
maybe I can rest my head
but until then
I guess I still have to contend


If it is a matter of luck
  it doesn't matter much

I guess whatever works
 However much it hurts

If it is a matter of chance
  I still maintain my stance

I guess whatever works
  However much it hurts

However much it hurts