The New Throne

I want the world in a plastic bag
payed for with a cash advance
I want a nuclear power plant
and a government grant
I want a tax break
on my slave trade
a bailout on my air raids
and industries
my oil profits will not pay for these
I want my portfolio to grow
until the middle class falls to zero
I want everything for nothing
and I want more
from the convenience stores
to the pipelines on the gulfs, and shores
Ill name my price
and you will pay
take my advice
and live MY way
rest your little heads to sleep
keep living the American dream
regardless what comes naturally
I will process, package, irradiate chemically
the fluoride is only for your teeth 
the sulfur in the air is okay
Ignore the taste
shut up and pay


or you will pay. . . . . . . .

Rodent

I've been in the dark for so long
I fear Ill go blind in the light
the longer that you play the fool
the less everyone thinks youre right
Im hanging by my final string
and even thats unraveling
collect all of their fingers aim
when youre the easy one to blame
im only trying to play the game
without the rulebook that they made
and as I do Im called insane
trapped in a judgmental gaze

Touche'

Too numb to care
too cold to cry
too weird to live
too rare to die
Dying inside
worn within
try to hide
whats wearing thin
Where will is torn
and outlooks grim
new dawns are born
with aims to win

Beware the Wild Love

Beware the wild love
the undomesticated and uncultivated
the feral and primate
the unrequisited
the unkempt
the untamed. . . .  love
for surely
and eventually
it will bite you in the ass
when you least expect it to
forcing you to stand alone
to avoid more pain.

Excess

Just because there are no bars
it does not mean its not a cage
Like tigers stalking the king
who has passed his time of age
Like a leg too weak to stand on
like a home you dont belong
Like a vivid lucid dream
that has grown colorless and drawn
Like a dagger in your back
when it was pointed towards your friends
Like falling far off the track
to where you cant return again
a hand too stiff to hold the pen
a foot too far across the edge
an answer  worn too thin
so that the question knows no end
a tired heart and clouded mind
accelerating hands of time
an embark on a decline
a life signed on the dotted line
So I'll do what I do best
fall into excess
forget all the rest
and take it all in jest.

So What?

I have tossed my mind about
carelessly,
 like a child with a ball
and it may have finally fell past retrieval.
I left an old heart scattered in too many places
pawned off like a unsealed garage sale puzzle
I have become the charicature, the cartoon,
that I created.
an external portrayal,
which is but a distorted reflection of the internal.
I have feigned listlessness for so long
that I may have actually achieved it
because I wanted to be like you,
a black belt, journeyman, mechanist, master of apathy
perfectionists of feeling nothing
and by the time I realized I was my own person
with all the emotions I was taught to neglect
it was too late, the leap was made.
I never wanted to not care,
I wanted to not care about how I care,
or how I thought.
and as the feelings die inside
so does the fire and the passion
that fuels the greatest of loves
and so the saying goes
be careful what you wish for.

Narcissist

Self absorbed belligerence
taking advantage of
anyone who cares enough
driven into decadence
Narcissist, heartless
emotionally lethargic
masquerading vanity as love
I sit and await your true colors
but like an albino peacock
they never seem to ever come
not in any way they show
more desperate I grow
caught in the undertow
of lies flowing from your mouth
struggling to paddle out
Maybe I could save myself
If I refused to give in
to the attentions you crave
this conceited world you're living in
self serving barbarian
Your ego is a rusty cage
containing all your selfish ways
and as it crumbles away with age
you will only have yourself to blame

Bean Machine 1.0

They don't understand my operating system
I have no 2.0
my security is flawed
no practicality
quick to crash
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its obscure cryptic manual
is lacking in detail
but it is not hardware error
it is not software error
it is user error
for it is incompatible with your realm.