Agnostic

I have been dreaming of rapture for so long
and not making it here, but when I'm gone
repeating the longest of sad songs
a paradise gone wrong

Heaven? Heaven can wait
while I try to make a cleaner slate

Dream of a warmth not remembered
a December that lasts forever
am I too numb to know if I get there?
set me free from this temper

Heaven? Heaven can wait
while I try to make a cleaner slate

Cling to a fury that helps me form
a silent calm right before the storm
These clouds that separate me from the norm
demons I can not reform

Heaven? Heaven can wait
while I try to make a cleaner slate

A childhood vision that's shattered
from a day when all of it mattered
a consultation that man has torn and tattered
misread words fill empty heads

Heaven? Heaven can wait
while I try to make a cleaner slate

God please don't tell me its too late.