Exhausted

Im just tired
sick and tired
Im tired of nothing
Im tired of everything
Im tired of being desensitized
Im tired of comfortability in oblivion
Im tired of picking up after others.
when I have my own messes.
Im tired of never going out, and staying closed here
so I can barely pay for the house I live in.
Im tired of going places, and not being able to afford it
Im tired of being billed, for necessary human commodities
like life, warmth, water, and food, owned by overbearing, power hungry, elitists.
Im tired of people scoffing at me, when their morality is more twisted than mine.
Im tired of the judgmental , who own no finger of damnation to point
Im tired of being told how to think, by plastic people, through an artificial eye.
Im tired of forever paying near fifteen percent for something I bought on my credit card, which only broke shortly after, and I never really needed in the first place.
Im tired of working my life away, handing out my earnings
to people who never lifted a finger in their lives
Im tired of being lead by religions that are the junk science of spirituality
Im tired of pretty faces that expect the world to be handed to them on a silver platter
when their personalities dont even deserve a plastic one.
Im tired of being made to feel guilty for the actions of my ancestors
because the color of my skin is white, and I dont even own myself.
Im tired of giving to middlemen, and corporations,  with state and federal tax.
specially on the liquor, beer, and cigarettes. 
which  I use to escape the society they built
Id rather buy a half ounce of marijuana from a drug dealer on the black market
than give another dollar to a public service that serves the rich minority.
Im tired of being scared, of all the fears that they monger
Im tired of the worship of celebrity lives,
that are more dysfunctional than the majority
yet still most want to be like them.
Im tired of ignorance, lack of knowledge, and unwillingness to learn
Im tired of ignoring my dreams, thoughts, and feelings
plus all I impose on myself., because I am too afraid to share them
Im tired of being lied to, because others worry what pain the truth brings
Im tired of compassionate deceit, instead of brutal honesty
Im tired of living in an age where questioning anything is rebellion
Im tired of people saying I love you, about as easily as they say hello
Im tired of people who say "and like" and "you know" in every sentence
neither groups of people know what the fuck they are talking about.
Im tired of love being just a word, and not a feeling.
Im tired of paying over 3 dollars a gallon, to get somewhere they need me to go.
Im tired of seeing a jungle of concrete and weeds.
Im tired of seeing not a thing, and everything at the same time.
Im tired of people reading over my back
im tired of comfortability in oblivion
Im tired of being desensitized
Im tired of everything
Im tired of nothing
sick and tired
Im just tired